If you are not seriously engaged in exploring the questions below about God, Self, The World, The Cosmos, and Consciousness, what are you doing? It’s okay to say because anything you come up with is just what you have to row past before waves of real inquiry wash up against your mind. It takes an open and sincere heart to attract them and an indefatigable intent to take them on. Just row your boat out a short ways from the dock. You will be surprised at what is possible.
Most people are afraid of being on their own. We hold on to personal identities, programmed beliefs and practices, and institutional thought structures because we are afraid of Infinity. The dock is safer than the sea. It’s safe to approach these questions from inside the mind because whatever answers you come up with remain in the mind. You trade one mental structure for another and call it understanding. “Hi, Honey, I’m home. What’s for dinner?”
Human consciousness is awareness capable of entertaining a sense of self and maintaining a strategy for living in the world. How far such a being is willing to ride out to sea on waves of real questions is one of the deep mysteries of existence.
What is the Supreme Godhead and how shall I name it? Does this Supreme Godhead have form or is it pure spirit, the unformed Absolute?
Who am I? What is Self? What does the guru know? What is my soul and how shall I relate to it? How does my soul relate to God? Do I have free will? Does God’s will run everything?
What is the nature of the world I live in from day to day in time? Objective fact or perception? What drives the activity of the world? What should I do? Why do human beings suffer? What happens at death? What’s it all for? Where does all the energy come from? What is there to live for besides pleasure, power, and wealth? What is love?
What is the cosmos? Why is it here? What do cosmic beings do? Are “the gods” real? Why can’t I see them? How do I fit into the big picture? Who or what is running the show? What does it mean to be infinite?
What is consciousness? Is consciousness different from intelligence? What is the mind? How is it different from self? What are “higher states of consciousness?” How does consciousness relate to the Absolute? What is unbounded consciousness?
It is impossible to write coherently on Osho. The mind becomes confounded when approaching him. The only truth one can render upon him is that all of what is said about him, either by sannyasins or by detractors, is a lie. Nothing said can touch what Osho is, and yet words flow forth from all who seriously look into his eyes and look into his words and look into his activities. Many, many useless words, and yet the appeal to his mystery is like diving into the flame of love, knowing that death is the only outcome. They have come by the millions and died for their love of him. Can anyone possibly understand that? If he is a fraud, then the whole universe is a fraud and there is no God.
Or understand the efforts of his devotee lieutenants to take over a portion of Oregon in the 1980s to set up a community for sannyasins to engage in their ecstasy-generating meditations and live together as an advanced human civilization. Watch the Netflix six-hour film Wild Wild Country. Get engaged on both sides! Shake your fist! Wring all the judgments out of your mind; then go onto the website and see the legacy Osho has left behind. And yes, I believe the American government poisoned him. Such a man and the reality he represents, especially at this time in the history of humanity, presents a greater danger than terrorist bombings. Jesus was murdered for the same reason; Mohammed took up arms in his time in order not to be murdered. These men questioned the reality of their worlds, not just the politics. What has changed in thousands of years of human madness and its search for answers? Someone had the balls to say the truth! Look around at all the institutions that control our thinking and our activities. There is no such thing as political freedom. Don’t be fooled. Osho spent his life saying the things that get people killed if those words take on great influence, as Osho’s words did.
Now that he is dead, he is a safe undertaking. No one will follow you into dark alleys. If you end up looking over your shoulders, it will be to see your family and friends inside the barriers they hide behind rather than face the unbounded ocean of being. His legacy is massive. All that he has left behind is alive and well and massively transforming. Osho was a speaker. He spoke eternity. He spoke eternity for thousands of hours. Those talks have been turned into printed books, audiobooks, and videos. Go to the home website. Sign up for newsletters. Become a member. Listen to talks. Acquire and use the Osho Zen Tarot and the Osho Transformation Tarot. Get the physical decks or get the phone apps and use them. Practice the dynamic meditations. Get the music. Dance in the light. Get to know your ecstatic self. Learn their truths. Go on the many websites devoted to him. Feel the praise and the rage. Go on Amazon for print books and audiobooks. Best books to get: The Book of Secrets and Tantra; best audiobook: The Path of Love. My best recommendation is to listen to audiobooks. His English is accented but clear and understandable. He was a college professor before he cut loose from that scene, so he is very educated. He knows a thing or two about saints and sages, ancient and contemporary, history and contemporary politics; he knows scriptures from all religions. He doesn’t hold anything back.
And then when you are done with all of that, get over to Pune, India, southeast of Mumbai, and throw yourself into the fire. Want quick radical change? Go there.
Osho is not safe. He requires of his sannyasins that they give up absolutely everything they believe in, all in the name of undefined existence. Pure existence itself bursts out of his eyes. Nothing he does or says can be contained by the totality of his being. How deeply etched into your consciousness are the boundaries of your life? He will crush them. There is no sober way to approach Osho.
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“Only rare individuals have the strength to take a large immediate plunge straight into the sea of the Divine Inﬁnity. Some therefore must choose as a starting point a concentration in thought or contemplation or the mind’s one-pointedness to ﬁnd the eternal reality of the Self in them.” –Sri Aurobindo The Synthesis of Yoga
All forms of the divine, whether they originate in the history of the race, or in the deep imagination of a culture, or from the swirl of ideas in the wash of time—all so consecrated forms are gestures of the one Absolute Spirit, impulses of the Infinite Intelligence toward the awaking of that single individual who has turned head and heart in the direction of that truth. All other considerations aside, the seeker of God receives what he or she needs in the way of ascending to the path of truth, from which, through the faith and longing in the heart, there is no return, only eternal unfoldment.
Such a form is Lord Shiva. Worshipped for thousands of years through art, stories, chants, mantras, sutras, ceremony, pilgrimage, and face-on-the-floor surrender, this form of God is a doorway into the infinite for any individual willing to walk through it. Shiva brings his own gifts to the heart he floods with illumination. Divinity specific to this form is a storehouse of revelation. Satchitananda is his home. His earthly abode is atop Mt. Kailas in western Tibet. I know. I have visited the sacred mountain and circumambulated its base. I have touched the north face with mortal hands and have ridden the wave of inner transformation that has led me to this moment. Lord Shiva knows me and I Him. He is the essence of meditation, which is a dive into infinite silence, into consciousness without a thought, into existence before consciousness. I have meditated tens of thousands of hours at his feet. To know Shiva is to be awake to the Absolute. His image is fierce because making the inward turn takes courage that can only deity can provide. Cutting through the waves of infinity is serious business. Shiva is also infinite intelligence. His dance covers the entire cosmos. And, yes, too, “I am Shiva! Lord of Death!”. Om namah Shivia Om namah ShiviaOm namah Shivia
Caution is always advised when moving in the direction of the Infinite. A deity worshipped with an open and sincere heart acts as much as a protector as a revealer. On your own is not a safe passage; often the infinite roars like a giant waterfall getting louder as one clutches helplessly to one’s raft. What to do? A steady ascending passage is the gift of the Divine through the chosen deity. Such a deity is not a savior, but the divine uplift inherent in the spirit woven into the mind and heart of the awakening soul. The sadguru will bring the deity to life. Your Higher Self will guide you in its use.
The chant presented here is called the Shiva Gayatri. Gayatri is a rhythm, one of the most ancient rhythms of awakening in the human race. It was the most used by the ancient seers of the Rig Veda. All Gayatri mantras today use that rhythm and several key words. I have underlined those key words in the text below. The original Gayatri Mantra was an offering to the Solar Lord of this system and is the oldest known mantra in existence. It has been rendered today by many devotional singers. Devi Premal has recorded many Hindu devotional chants, the most beloved of which, I believe, is the original Gayatri Mantra. This audio is of me chanting the Shiva Gayatri for ten minutes:
Om Tatpurushaya Vidmahe
Tanno Rudrah Prachodayat
Om, Let me meditate on the great Purusha,
Oh, greatest God, give me higher intellect,
And let God Rudra illuminate my mind
Purusha = the divine self, the invisible room, the indefinable;
Rudra = an ancient name for Shiva
The advantage of taking up a form of worship from outside of one’s home culture is that you can consciously determine how much of the cultural overlay you wish to participate in. The question is how much “debris” do you wish to row your evolutionary boat through on the way to infinity, where all forms burn up in the fire of life? In the privacy of my heart, I can feel the divinity of Jesus, but I would not proclaim that feeling to any others in my world without risking being defined in a way that I know I am not. Think of the mantra above as a tool, one of many possible tools, in this metaphor as an oar; think of the boat as your personal self; think of the river as the evolutionary movement in which your boat moves. When your boat begins moving on its own inexorably toward the goal, no need for the oar. Eventually no need for the boat. I believe in keeping it simple. Feel what it is. Touch the mystery of existence. Touch the mystery of you. The image above is my worship for you to see. The image below is my inner journey for you to see.
How can we ever know the nature of the womb until we emerge from it into a space where we can turn around and see. Awakenings in the spirit always include a place of living gestations out of which we emerge into an unfamiliar environment: infinity this way, infinity that way; new knowings to wrap around my awareness so I can move forward, understand more, take my place in a new reality. The soul is always in a process of childbirth. The courage to step out of the familiar into the unfamiliar and seek new protection, new forms of knowing as a vehicle for further awakening, puzzles the will that eventually realizes it cannot find viability without the guidance of great beings of the cosmos. Such is the story of this episode.
The Invisible Room, your divine Self, is infinitely deep. You and I exist on an infinitesimal wave of its knowing, learning to locate and accept that infinity when it decides that it is time for us to know, one person at a time, through the eons, and hopefully one day the race as a whole. It’s not an easy acknowledgement to make when we have been programmed to see the world through the darkened lens of the rational mind. But here we are.
These four audios were created for deep penetration outside the veils that shelter us from infinity. Our desire to know arises directly out of infinity, and if you want to travel into the deep mystery right off, these instruments will point you in directions you never heard of.
The mind always wants to know, but in the case of the Invisible Room, the mind has no dominion. Nevertheless, we live and move through the world with the mind pushing us here and there without any regard to the immanent and transcendent presence of the Invisible Room, God, the Absolute, Brahman, the Ultimate of What Is. These pages recognize the mind’s desire to know and my desire to help anyone who wishes to saturate his or her mind with the divine essence. Besides, the divine essence of knowledge is joy, ananda, bliss. So, take a deep breath and dive in.
The Invisible Room Podcast is about generating a psychic motion inside the mind that carries listeners through the many mental, emotional, and physical layers of our existence to come upon a reality of pure spirit, the divine self, Atman, Nirvana, the Buddha-nature, or God if you wish, or the invisible room, the real place, the truth place, the center of the maelstrom. That passage is, to my mind, the truth of our human existence, the thing we do when we wake up from the insistent story-telling of the mass consciousness and the dark resistance put up against those who seek to step outside the well-guarded norms of social, religious, and political beliefs. Something inside us is real! Locating that reality in how we live our confused and tortured lives is the challenge of existence, for beneath even the simplest quotidian activities, there is an inherent anxiety about the place we occupy in the universe and the astonishing lack of knowledge of who we are as human beings and where we are going as our lives unfold, not to mention the destiny of the race. You stand alone and the more awake you are, the more alone you are. The unknown is unrelenting in its power to generate existential anxiety.
Deeper still is the anxiety that arises out of the structure of human consciousness, which creates a separation between an inner knowing being and an outer world that is existentially experienced as a not-self reality, something alien, and something inherently dangerous. The anxiety generated by that gap is the stuff of human living, and the challenge of religious and spiritual dominions is to overcome that crisis either through a radical restructuring of our consciousness (e.g., Advaita Vedanta and Zen Buddhism) or through a compensation for the alien other by creating out of it a particular loving other, a saint, savior, deity, guru, or God that will make it all okay (all other religion).
Regardless of whether one is religious or not, every human being faces from moment to moment these crises of the unknown and the unknowable as an ongoing anxiety out of which all other anxieties arise. For most human beings this anxiety is a deadening hum arising out of the infinite.
So how to deal with this anxiety in this podcast and in the awakenings represented in the stories, images, and darshan pages on the website? And who are these people anyway? What appears here are some gestures for moving forward with that kind of knowledge. Take it as it is. Being awake means taking responsibility for the situation you are in, which manifests in the intense longings that arise in the heart, mind, and body, urging you to do something, even if the person next to you has no idea.
Tuning in to the one real voice inside of us is the only chance we have for approaching this anxiety with courage.
If you want to define this anxiety as arising from separation from God, feel free. In the west, it’s the norm. The exile of Adam and Eve from Eden for committing a crime against God is the dominant story in western consciousness. This story has turned western civilization into a morality play of crime, punishment, and redemption, which is being acted out behind every door in every home and office, and in every public forum, including in, especially, the mass media. The Old Testament is the life of separation-from-God anxiety lived by the guilty descendants of Adam and Eve, struggling from generation to generation on the way to some undefined redemption, or acceptance of the simple belief that being Jewish is enough. The New Testament represents the opportunity to live life free of that anxiety by inviting in Jesus to pay the fine arising from our de facto guilt, paving the way to an anxiety free afterlife. The question here, of course, is whether the real Jesus can be freed from imprisonment in the dungeons of the mass consciousness to affect personal redemption, not to mention the mass uplifting of believers into his eternal presence in an afterlife. Two thousand years of absence and counting. The same is true for Mohammad and Moses within their respective cultures. The overall failure of western and eastern religions to alleviate human ignorance and suffering after thousands of years of applying that “software,” to human pain and longing should be apparent to anyone willing to look up and assess. From within those institutions, however, no self-diagnostics are allowed. Self and other remains self and other, unredeemed and still looking. Perhaps nature has a plan. Perhaps God has a plan. Perhaps there are better odds here than drawing to an inside strait.
Tuning in to the one real voice inside of us is the only chance we have for approaching this anxiety with courage.